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Name: Stephanie
Birthday: 5/10/1986
Interests: Onions, cinnamon and sugar, horse back riding, profound conversations leading to a community/unity in Christ, wading in the water, repelling/rock climbing, drums, running, jumping, laughing, swing/salsa dancing, chicken, writing when I have strange urges to write poetry or what not, understanding people's beliefs, reading in trees or out on my boat, singing in the rain at the top of my lungs, riding a motorcycle (one day...), Snickers, smelling flowers, driving down random roads sequestered with various trees that remind me of God/freedom.
Expertise: I'm just amazing at everything...mwahahaha! no...you should already know the answer to this question
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Hospitality
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/13/2005
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| Growing up...something I never thought I would enjoy or want to take part in.
The term has always had negative connotations for me, and yet the advantages of it outweigh "being young and naive." The process is not over night and it's not always forced. Sure for me coming to UGA was a big push in the "I have bills, I have to self motivate myself in school, and organize my life, etc" in addition to not having my parents over my shoulder helping me make every decision. However, I am not talking about that kind of growing up. It's a maturity that is weighed from the actions and reactions to others. All it takes is for someone to come along that is motivation enough to see the significance of it all. Does that make sense?
You know how people say that a guy will grow up much faster if he sees the need after meeting his potential wife and has a goal to marry someone? I always thought that was BS. I was under the impression you had to be ready for them the moment you started dating, and if they weren't ready it wasn't meant to be b/c that would mean I am not ready. I was starting to think that it was impossible for me to find someone that G-d intended to be perfect for me. I had too many standards, too many heartbreaks, and not enough trust that G-d would take care of me in this area.
So for my love to come along and be the most persistent, patient, loving, devoted person I have ever known didn't seem plausible. I pushed him away as if my life is too much of a burden for anyone to handle. A burden...pathetic huh? That's what happens when your self esteem is powerfully influenced by the materialistic, superficial, "i can do everything myself; don't need anybody" world we live in.
Now this is the awesome part. So G-d. You know, the one who created us and loves us unconditionally? The one that never leaves our side even when we're being retarded, and we can never have to worry about Him looking down upon us or turning away....never imagined a man that would do the same.
I kept denying my feelings for this person, not wanting to lead him on, going on as if I never saw us as anything more than friends. But for him, he kept being friends even when it hurt at times. And in this HE grew to understand what it means to keep G-d as his first love, and what it means to be the man G-d has him to be. For He is our only solid ground, and working on what I so bluntly pointed out to be the problem on why we wouldn't work only humbled him to grow for himself.
So while we are both just growing in our own ways in separate states (stupid grad school), G-d has this little plan of His. Innocent visits only reveal the attraction, the compatibility, and the beginnings of something we both thought would never happen since I had clearly broken it off once. Let's just say his romanticizing the poo out of me with things like surprise visits for a weekend, a diamond necklace as an expression of a new beginning, bouquets of flowers every time the other bouquet dies, and an attention that surpasses my looks and "yeah, she's pretty cool," loving me for who I am in Christ is only the beginning of explaining why this guy is amazing.
I have been explained by Grace as a Jewel that is soo rare, so beautiful, but fragile. And the man to have it cannot be someone to put it in a box and hide it away from the rest of the world; he's to show it off as the most precious thing he has. And that's exactly how he treats me.
G-d has blessed me far beyond what I would ever deserve, finding someone that only pushes me forward into having nothing but a desire to be and become a godly woman is the most refreshing thing in the world.
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| Horrible are the justifications we make
Beautiful is the love we find.
Lives we must shake
To tear us of the bind
That capture the very best part of us.....
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| I have moved on to da book o' da Face (aka Facebook), and may write on here ever so often, but I have enjoyed the ventings I have been so crazy with on here. Soo I just want to say hello for one! This sight brings back so many funny memories, frustrating memories, as well as fickle thoughts of my own. Now being 22 and moving in a direction that holds so much potential for a joyous life for God I simply don't have time for this. If you'd like to know my life's updates, please just contact me via phone (770)-851-2699 or email or fb. But hey! i may get in the mood to write about my recent train of thought. And this is kinda nice since most people aren't on here to read it anyway :P anywho, I hope all is well with you xangans! Be blessed! -S. | | |
| there is a feeling...i can't describe. something i am afraid of. something that may only be a dream. something you only have for a while, and then you'll never see again. you know how there are dif kinds of love? yeah....well this song reminds me of this feeling....something familiar that i guess i am writing for myself only?
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Your Guardian Angel
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]
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| Your eyes are greenish like grass
Your cheeks are red like Dawn's shirt
Your shirt is black like Kelly's heart (jk)
I love you Stephanie-your having my baby
in the future...Love Kevin
this made me laugh....*sigh*.....
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